Watching a man take his last breath on this planet

It is not the first death since Calpine 2016 spoofed and lying email guy. It probably will not be the last as he is absolutely insane. The first one was hard to digest, a man intentionally only sharing bits of information then claiming he is taking the Miranda. Serving up a couple years of distraction and harassment, then as I circled back to see how my childhood best friend was faring when he refused to elaborate found she had been forced into homelessness and run over. 

This December incident was different from so many others like the above. This was a case where I knew full well if I see a man not breathing you have 7 minutes to bring him back. 

I am not carrying phones, nor wearing watches due to the extended stalking and attacks and those are life saving devices when there are minutes to save a life and you know it. 

This went from a man intentionally setting up a role play game to make death threats, and create data leaks on bots while sending wireless attackers in 2019 to my not being able to wear or use any normal phone or watch due to his extended duration psychological warfare on our lives. Some simulated and faked hacks on Apple. Some real if you move to Android (clearly his better skill). 

Apple had the best chance of all to identify the man between 2019 and 2025 with over fifteen opened tickets to customer service, ethics and their product development team explaining someone was stalking with Machine Learning data (audio) on their devices. I had logs, I had device movements, I had virtual machines, and he was an authorized consumer of these Machine Learning data acquisitions. This was confirmed, as I was served up grief by the man doing it.

 Back to December 2025. I am walking down the hall. A man is lying in such an obvious place an AED (defibrillator) should be in place. And sure enough he was not breathing at all. I know what happens if he is not breathing and all you want at that point in time is to have your normal phone, your normal watch and say "Siri - call 911 now". Yet no. The people did what people do and stood shocked for a minute - so to take them out of shock I did what is taught in self defense training and yelled HELP at the top of my lungs. 

I then proceeded to try to open the man's jaws and could not - they were stuck. I asked another party to try to help. Told him we needed to sweep his mouth. He also could not open the jaws. I said we need to try something like CPR then - I will do the chest pumps and you try to breath into his mouth. 

We started the procedure and after the first chest pumps and 6 breaths into his mouth he sputtered and started to have autonomic response. He was breathing. 

I looked at his eyes and I could see - it was too late. You cannot lose one single second in an emergency where someone is not breathing. The duress of not having my normal devices with me was significant.

 A man who decided he wanted to play hacker and reverse psychology games since 2019 - with authorized access to machine learning and probably authorized access to Google Data Takeout (and so much more) had driven me off my devices for so many years I do not operate on normal faculty and with the tools I want to have at my disposal in any crisis.

He died. I am sure - without even looking at his medical records - he was brain dead as you have 7 crucial minutes. That is it.

I had presented on this subject at British Petroleum. Made a joke asking what is AES to a bunch of techies to wake them up and of course they knew the answer. Then made a joke asking who knows what an AED is .....*crickets*. After that presentation and leaving BP they made bots about that presentation (and impersonations of me) for literally 12 years on Twitter/X.

They made those bots. They had time to spin up the wireless SSID's here as "stalking jokes" (probably tapping and working on business process with the corporate housing) - and they did not even have an AED on the wall by a sauna, whirlpool, basketball court, gym, yoga room, and more.

 No one thought about safety. Not one person this entire time. A man died for it. No one has had response processes for crisis after crisis this man has generated stalking me with his buddies.

It is January. I am to grieve, forget, and continue to participate in his abnormal psychology that has him laughing the minute someone dies - as has happened before. 

The man who died had his whole life ahead of him. Went to the gym each day, was fit, and probably had a seizure. Yet a major seizure with a fall - is not necessarily mutually exclusive from heart attacks and breathing. None of the necessary health saving apparatus that should be in there to shave off minutes trying to work him into breathing again - were there. I do not forget these things easily. Nor do I forget the sheer belligerence of this man trying to stalk me and speaking in word salad for decades now. 

 

 

 

Christmas Day

It is Christmas day. I might have gotten out of bed, suggested we buy some cookies go see mom. Take the dog let her hug and do groundhog day - and make it fun.Then go for some Dim Sum. Some bike riding in the park. Yet I have been taught by Steve's "revenge" for six years no hand holding because Stan is going to write up some abuse claim, auntie Lesley's media manager is going to lie, people are going to betray, pre-text, the pedophile is still going to chase, the impersonator still going to impersonate and say he is speaking on behalf of my fathers wife, aunt, sister, whatever. He will toss in some bot rape, intentional trauma, put a twisted tea can at the door, make me want to vomit in some way by the end of the day even if it is going back and trying to go through these screenshots to clean up the PC.

 So today, we continue to live separate lives because that is just what it is and I'm not doing anything for someone who could not be identified and arrested for such egregious actions while saying he is going to shoot this, shoot that, shoot me, shoot everyone then saying "it's just a game". 

I am just brain dead after so many years of it. Hand holding in my mind, and imagining that is the day we had. Yet it will not be what I have because I cannot root out the participants. The guy claims he is operating on your behalf, speaking on your behalf, speaking on Stan's wife's behalf, speaking on behalf of Bob, etc.