Tim

I love you Tim. You deserved such better health care. I cannot fix it because you will never sign consent as you are stuck in a system of manipulation that engulfs people, and someone working with Julia chose to take advantage of that. That loop keeps getting worse instead of better. I miss you so much and love you so much. There is such a vast amount of understanding I always had about the entire situation I wish I could have contributed to make the world wonderful for you. An understanding others in our family are too incapacitated to resolve. 

Cannabis is now well understood in science to cause mental health issues if you started it in your teens and you did. There is a vast amount of denial all over the world about this. I cannot fix that either as Julia will work relentlessly until her last breath to stop me. 

I compare it to those who believe in the science of our environment and climate change, just as there will be folks who never will in this generation. Perhaps it makes you feel good and eases pain anyway, I cannot judge you for wanting to feel good in your situation.

You are such a smart, well read, articulate person and so funny. My heart aches every holiday for you because we used to spend them together. 

Because someone can do the window trick, someone will. That for me is pretty easy to digest. For you it was unfair. I don't have the resources to fix it as attorneys are "expensive" and someone also meddling with Julia has been draining them. It makes me sad, because I love you and want so much for us to have fun like we did at our wedding which was the last time I saw you really happy to be with us.