I knew my father was abandoning by 2004, he peaked by 2010 - Trauma ...any email in 2010

I lived with him. Julia and Greg did not. He was tired in 2004. He was abandoning. My mother was pushing his moves to help Tim.  She was gone by 2006.

By 2007 he has decided I can have $5,000 to help Tim and dote on his new wife with the riches.

Remember folks despite inflation he bought pointe shoes for UNCSA and Southwest Ballet Center where I was assaulted by adult males and trained by women with eating disorders. Not his fault.....I demanded to dance. Well it was one of the few places where I was not being beat up for showing up to school without the ability to pay the girl back who gave me a loan to eat pizza on pizza day in the cafeteria.

I'm reading the notes and emails I was writing to try to save myself from being the last person standing carrying the emotional burden with none of the money (at work and with my family) and they were not good. 

I LOVE TIM - and I have PTSD from Tim. 

It's like my father did not realize I was dragged on the ground until my skin was cracked open, I had a bone broken in my eye.

He also NEVER LISTENED...DO NOT YELL AT TIM DAD HE DOES NOT MEAN TO DO THIS - I CAN SEE HIM CHANGING, SOMETHING IS CHANGING AND HE NEEDS HELP 

Did my father listen and not yell at him?  No.

Tim's narrative was changing from GUILT of being forced to cook for me and save me from falling TV's to ANGER he could not save me.

Tim and I were suffering from massive trauma. 

We needed to be in a more positive environment together by age 11. He was having to teach me how to punch the girl bullying me in school.

The abandonment and cruelty strategy, towards Tim, has been traumatizing me more. By 2010 I was hand waving - I am here I was the one kicked and hurt and you are leaving 5K to a stranger who did nothing.Yet even worse, I can see in these emails now, you were gaslighting me.

 

And someone was impersonating my accounts....which is horrifying.