The Levers I used, the levers she used

 I had to play the only lever I had:

"I am the only person kicked and punched"

This will allow me to see how you were going to play your abandonment card. Because it's a known fact Stan, you cut me off financially at 13 after two men took me to a hotel room and drugged me.

I regret that decision now. Mainly because I still understood every time I was kicked and punched that my brother was "snapping" out of guilt and then manipulation. Guilt he shared with me from age 15-27....manipulation by Jennifer and the whole "hacking" allegation thing of 1995.  I still loved him.

Also, I wished he and my sister would quit cannabis. No one was convinced about the research of the side effects.

I quit hanging around Jennifer (red flags she was too controlling trying to turn me into a submissive doll wearing the right color of lipstick etc were already there). She picked up dating my brother, after I exited that relationship. A brother who was already known vulnerable. She knew he was already known vulnerable. He will make a good victim to "submit". It never made sense. It looks vicious in hindsight. Not sure if she operates this way on basic intuition and does not realize it. 

I look at what was done, and what she told me even in 2019, and if there was a child involved it would exist today. She made up an egregious story sending him to planned parenthood which you punished him for. She really messed with his head in battles. Ones he was not going to go discuss with his father.

I can read these letters, know this information, and know she buried him with guilt and grief. Buried him completely. She made up a story about abortion because she wanted to fight about it. She was a republican, that fight was never going to go well. 

He wasn't going to go tell you Stan she was manipulating him to extreme levels. 

Same thing about unions. She loved politics. Yet every move he made was the wrong one once she entered the scene and no one ever gave him hope they gave him punishment like a dog.